i had to grow up
5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
I’ve been seeing my life as of late to be stale, mundane and just a chore. I’ve been meeting so many amazing people, and my relationships with my friends have gotten better and better, yet there was still that yearning for more and looking for something more…
How quickly I forget that just a few months ago I was walking through the darkest valley of my life. Nothing seemed to go right, nothing satisfied me, and nothing promoted growth for me emotionally, mentally and most importantly; spiritually.
If it weren’t for the trials I faced and the suffering I went through in those dark valleys I would never have found rest in a relationship with Jesus. I perceive things as stale, mundane and a chore because I have forgotten that this place of ultimate rest is what God had wanted for me and what I had prayed for for months. With my mind running 100mph, I had no time to think, no time to rest, no time to heal. It’s clear that in these times of stillness, that I need to seek God more than ever.
We are all habitual complainers and panickers. My prayer for everyone and for myself is to not make our relationship with Jesus like a pocket-genie, where we only pull him out seeking his grace during times of distress, but be more aware of the rest that God has placed in our lives and thank him for that. Don’t forget that through the storm he was with you and never forget to trust Jesus into the small storm of today, because he’s sparing you from the big storm of tomorrow. .
Erin McCarthy, The Pregnancy Test
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