I'm only 21 but I have felt so much hurt from my insanely fucked up relationship that ended not too long ago. Sometimes I'm afraid that all I am now is broken merchandise. A piece of trash that was played with, broken and returned because it was no longer useful. I'm not good enough to go back out on the shelves of the store because why put out a broken merchandise when there's plenty of good ones in stock? Do you think the hurt will subside? How do I go on?
It’s about to get real serious on this Friday afternoon…
First off, I’m not trying to minimize your hurt or your experiences but I think we all go through troubles and hurt in our lives. Part of living life is to allow others to enter into our own and believe it or not, more people will hurt you in the process of living than help you live.
It sounds like what you need is to find your identity. You are looking at yourself from the third person perspective because you have diminished your identity as “broken merchandise,” when in reality we are all sinners and broken and in need of our everyday savior.
Understand this; we are ALL in the backroom waiting to be repaired. No one is perfect. We are all made in the image of God but broken in more ways than we can imagine. No one is out there on the shelves. We are all in queue to be glued up, repaired, fixed up, dusted off and being prepped to go out on the shelves of the store.
You are stronger than you think my friend. Who are you to tell yourself that you are not good enough? Jesus has called us to walk with him. Will you have the audacity to refuse him because you think you know better?
Do not be fearful of not being good enough to “go back out on the shelves of the store” because that fear will confine you to your past and limit your future.
Embrace this everyday struggle and recognize that we are all broken. Embrace the struggle to learn who you are. You are NOT broken. Recognize, learn, embrace, acknowledge that. Know that you have been called with the strength that is already in you. If you sit in the corner crying over what happened, how will you know what you are REALLY worth? Take what you have now, and show yourself the strength that you already posses.
There’s a saying that “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle.” But I think it is quite the opposite; God willalways give us more than we can handle because that is how we learn to depend on and appreciate his love/grace/strength.
I read this quote the other day; “A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because her trust is not on the branch but on it’s own wings.”
I think that is a very powerful quote. Don’t lean on the things of this world and don’t put your trust in the people or things of this world. As far as the bird relying on her own wings; we have to rely on ourselves but that only comes from a strong, solid foundation that can only come from having a real relationship with God.
The struggle is what makes us strong. We cannot rely on our own understandings and the methods of this world. Know that God is doing more than you or I can ever understand. Know that when we are at our worst, God is at his best. His strength is made perfect in your weakness. So stop trying to forget about what happened to you. Don’t try to minimize it. Don’t tell yourself you’re too good for it. Embrace it. Until you embrace your weakness and hurt, you will never fully appreciate God’s strength.
On a more personal note; I pray every single day for God to heal my wounds and make me into the man he has planned for me. Hurt is hurt, but there is comfort in knowing Jesus. Don’t pray for an uncluttered mind/heart. Rather, pray for his presence in the midst of all the hurt, pain, doubt, insecurities and confusion in your life. Pray for his hand to touch you in the place you feel the weakest. Don’t pray for a bandaid to just cover up the wound. You need the ointment that will heal the cut just as much as you need the bandaid to cover it up. Allow Jesus to enter your life as you are now. He meets us where we are.
I hope you have a great weekend!
Alex & Oliver
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how often do you go to the gym? you seem like you can go into the gym after a long hiatus and go straight to crushing 275 on deadlift
i try to go to the gym 3x a week.
squat and deadlift have always been my strong suit.
why do you think people ask you so many personal questions? especially about your "love life" or lack there of.
probably because i answer it?
i guess girls have like their magazines?
the ones that have like “top 10 best sex secrets”
"10 things you need to look for in a guy"
to help them cope with emotional shit?
but guys dont have stuff like that i dont think.
you can find articles in GQ or esquire but those r dumb tbh.
those are about getting over a girl buy going out and ordering a $80 glass of whiskey and experiencing the sexual concoction of alcohol in your mouth.
im just your basic bro with basic problems like every other basic bro out there struggling with the same struggle.
i think ppl relate to what i say and how i express myself.
i dont have the luxury or the desire to just “go out and bang mad chicks” to get over an ex
i dont have the luxury or the desire to go out clubbing and partying and drinking to forget about shit.
i have a job to go to mon-friday and i have school.
i have homework to do.
i dont have the time or money to go through “retail therapy.”
we all in the same struggle ship.
im just not afraid to express myself i guess.
also the internet is MAD weird.
why was that ask feature tagged under menswear?
i have NO idea.
who’s responsible for this??
So, how's the single life? When do you plan to get back out there?
everything i thought i knew about relationships was wrong.
its helped me realize just how unprepared i am for a relationship.
what is your ideal girl like?
she doesn’t need me.
she wants me.
"i think that you might possibly be the most perfect girl ive ever known". what makes her perfect?
I haven’t met anyone that I could get along with that well.
We were together all the time, yet I still missed her.
We were inseparable; we were a team, a package deal and everyone knew it.
She made me laugh all the time.
She was able to handle my abusive sarcasm and she threw sass back at me which made me appreciate her even more.
She loved to eat as much as I did and she wasn’t shy about it.
We both appreciated the silence as much as deep conversations about life, family, religion and just the struggles we faced living our own lives.
I think as we live our lives we stumble across people like that.
Someone that is that missing puzzle piece to our confusing and discombobulated lives.
We can hope, wish and pray that we meet the right person at the right time.
If we happen to meet them at the wrong time, it sucks…
We will just spend the rest of our lives trying to find that puzzle piece again, but fully knowing that it won’t fit perfectly.
It’s like that box of puzzle pieces you’ve had since you were a child.
You’re older now, it’s a Thursday night and you’re bored.
You had a drink and you were digging through your closet and found the box of puzzle pieces.
You are wiser, more mature, more intelligent and you feel like you’re fully equipped to complete the puzzle.
It’s the right time.
But as you start putting it together, you realize the one piece that goes in the middle is missing.
It must’ve fallen out of the box when you moved from your hometown to the big city.
The puzzle looks good from afar.
You can hang it on the wall and at a glance everyone will think it’s complete.
But you know it’s not done.
You know there’s a piece missing.
And you know that no other piece will fill it.
You can try finding a similar piece but it’ll be a different color, a different thickness, a different picture.
That piece isn’t meant for your puzzle.
So it’s a cool piece of artwork, but it’ll never be complete.
What am I even saying?
ugghhhhh you are so 멋있어!!! why do all the good ones have to be gay??