🍚👻 (at The Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York)
Pastor @carllentz doing his thing today @hillsongnyc
Filet mignon. T bone. Porter house. Slaughter house. 👌
You can’t sit with us.
✌️😏 (at Gansevoort Meatpacking NYC)
I'm only 21 but I have felt so much hurt from my insanely fucked up relationship that ended not too long ago. Sometimes I'm afraid that all I am now is broken merchandise. A piece of trash that was played with, broken and returned because it was no longer useful. I'm not good enough to go back out on the shelves of the store because why put out a broken merchandise when there's plenty of good ones in stock? Do you think the hurt will subside? How do I go on?
It’s about to get real serious on this Friday afternoon…
First off, I’m not trying to minimize your hurt or your experiences but I think we all go through troubles and hurt in our lives. Part of living life is to allow others to enter into our own and believe it or not, more people will hurt you in the process of living than help you live.
It sounds like what you need is to find your identity. You are looking at yourself from the third person perspective because you have diminished your identity as “broken merchandise,” when in reality we are all sinners and broken and in need of our everyday savior.
Understand this; we are ALL in the backroom waiting to be repaired. No one is perfect. We are all made in the image of God but broken in more ways than we can imagine. No one is out there on the shelves. We are all in queue to be glued up, repaired, fixed up, dusted off and being prepped to go out on the shelves of the store.
You are stronger than you think my friend. Who are you to tell yourself that you are not good enough? Jesus has called us to walk with him. Will you have the audacity to refuse him because you think you know better?
Do not be fearful of not being good enough to “go back out on the shelves of the store” because that fear will confine you to your past and limit your future.
Embrace this everyday struggle and recognize that we are all broken. Embrace the struggle to learn who you are. You are NOT broken. Recognize, learn, embrace, acknowledge that. Know that you have been called with the strength that is already in you. If you sit in the corner crying over what happened, how will you know what you are REALLY worth? Take what you have now, and show yourself the strength that you already posses.
There’s a saying that “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle.” But I think it is quite the opposite; God willalways give us more than we can handle because that is how we learn to depend on and appreciate his love/grace/strength.
I read this quote the other day; “A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because her trust is not on the branch but on it’s own wings.”
I think that is a very powerful quote. Don’t lean on the things of this world and don’t put your trust in the people or things of this world. As far as the bird relying on her own wings; we have to rely on ourselves but that only comes from a strong, solid foundation that can only come from having a real relationship with God.
The struggle is what makes us strong. We cannot rely on our own understandings and the methods of this world. Know that God is doing more than you or I can ever understand. Know that when we are at our worst, God is at his best. His strength is made perfect in your weakness. So stop trying to forget about what happened to you. Don’t try to minimize it. Don’t tell yourself you’re too good for it. Embrace it. Until you embrace your weakness and hurt, you will never fully appreciate God’s strength.
On a more personal note; I pray every single day for God to heal my wounds and make me into the man he has planned for me. Hurt is hurt, but there is comfort in knowing Jesus. Don’t pray for an uncluttered mind/heart. Rather, pray for his presence in the midst of all the hurt, pain, doubt, insecurities and confusion in your life. Pray for his hand to touch you in the place you feel the weakest. Don’t pray for a bandaid to just cover up the wound. You need the ointment that will heal the cut just as much as you need the bandaid to cover it up. Allow Jesus to enter your life as you are now. He meets us where we are.
I hope you have a great weekend!
Alex & Oliver
C is for Cute
#oliver lookin strong